1 year and 2 months!

1 YEAR, 2 MONTHS🕊❤️🕊❤️🕊

Even if only for a moment, Id give anything to hear my Moms voice just one more time, a trillion times for the rest of my life time 🙏🏾❤️

It was vague and short lived, but last night my Mom was in a dream with me. We were in a grocery store looking for items. She somehow lost a bracelet and needed to turn around but she was in a rush so I told her that I would stay and look for the bracelet. This bracelet had a lot of significance to her. After some time I found the bracelet. I went to look for her but she had already left. I called my Mom to tell her, but I opted to wait until I seen her to surprise her. That was the last time I seen her, then at some point in my dream I was told my Mom died. I was so heart broken and devastated. A little later in my dream as I sat in my car in an unknown area (It looked like my Grandma and Pop pops old place), a car pulls up and I stared at the car. It looked to be the silhouette of my Mom but I thought she was dead, the car pulls up next to me and I get a better look, and It was indeed my Mom. I ran out of the car crying to my Mom and told her that I thought she was dead and gave her the bracelet that she was looking for. I cried so bad hugging her and telling her that I thought she had died and that I missed her so much, my Mom responded to me and said, “I’m sorry Dani, I’m always here. I miss you so much. I love you.” I cried so bad in my dream hugging and holding my Mom. Then I woke up from my sleep crying in real life because reality hit me again, My Mom is no longer here. Ugh I miss my Mom so damn much it hurts. I need my Mom so bad it hurts…

Alot of people don’t know or believe in what happens when we leave this world. But I believe and I have faith. I believe my Mom is the most beautiful angel and she is watching over me. Something tells me that somehow, some way my Mom was trying to reach out to me through my dream. All I have is faith and hope🥰💞… I have cried out and called out for her so much since she left this world. 😔😪😭

They say dreams are just our imagination at work and dreams aren’t really real. But I will tell you one thing, aside from the tons of videos and pictures I have of my Mom, that dream was the closest thing I had to hugging my Mom and hearing her voice once more. Please come back Mommy🙏🏾

If I had to give one word right now to describe what I feel in this past year I would say, DIFFERENT. I am different, my life is different, my cares and wants are different, my views are different, my thoughts are different, the way I move is different, the things I do is different, I look at my time different. I look at everything different… I’m DIFFERENT!

When people say, “You have changed”, I most definitely have changed. Losing my Mom has changed me and made me DIFFERENT. Alot of things truly DO NOT MATTER. I care so much MORE about my time, my family, my friends, those who think about and care about me. I LOVE YOU!❤️❤️❤️

If there is one piece of advice I could give to anyone who reads this right now, it is to love on your loved ones and be kind. You never know what people are going through and what we hide from the world because we try to protect you and we don’t want to put what we are going through on others. The world is so cruel and alot of people like me get turned away for whatever reason and we deal with life the best way we know how. It isn’t easy AT ALL… Just be kind and care just a little bit more to ask someone how they are doing. Ask that question genuinely and listen for the response. That moment could mean the entire world to someone🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

If I haven’t told you lately, I LOVE YOU!❤️❤️❤️🤞🏾


*This picture is the closest that I have to show me running to my Mom like in my dream. I’d give anything to have this moment again🙏🏾❤️🙏🏾❤️🙏🏾

I love and miss my Mom so much! I’d give anything to experience this hug again🙏🏾🤞🏾❤️💞

Author: MsDraya

All I want to do is be myself and speak my mind. Follow and keep up with me on my journey in this interesting thing called life. Smile! Be happy! Dream! Do!

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