Let me start by saying this. There are many situations that do not need to be addressed publicly because they are personal matters. But then sometimes you have to let the world know exactly where you stand and be ahead of what is to come.
I am not perfect, I am human. I have strengths, but I also have flaws. I make mistakes! Sometimes I am wrong! Sometimes I don’t know! Show me a perfect person and I’ll show you a lie. Perfect does not exist. My happy, crazy, interesting, fucked up, loving, all over the place life is mine, my perfectly imperfect story! I like to party and hang out but I also enjoy being by myself. People will either relate or not relate, agree or disagree. And that is ok because just like me, we are all humans and entitled to our own opinions.
As much as they can get on your last nerve, you have to love and appreciate your siblings. No one is harder on you than your siblings. You get it all, raw and uncut. They make you laugh, they make you cry, they fight you, they help you, but most importantly they love you. They prepare you for the real world. They make you stronger. As much as it may piss you off, they tell you everything about yourself before anyone on the outside can. My oldest sister Ty has always said to me,
“Be your damn self! People might not like it, but people will respect you for it! You won’t reach out to everyone but you will reach out to someone. And those are the people that you worry about. You’re going to be judged, you’re going to be tried. But, at the end of the day, this is your story, your truth, not theirs. Fuck any and all bullshit!”
People are going to judge me, people are going to dislike me. And to that I say, I AM ME! I am human! This is my life, my story. I am giving my truth and I’m giving nothing but my truth. I can sugar coat and lie to you all but then I will be living a lie and we all know it is to much work to make up, keep up, and live a lie. I will never compromise the truth with comforting lies. People respect the truth and real! Respect is all I expect, and real is all I will be!
I have great days but I also have fucked up days. Everyone will not agree with me or relate to me. But someone will! I can’t be fake, I won’t be fake. Real is all I can and will ever be. I know some won’t think I am pretty enough, some won’t like the way I talk, some won’t like the way I walk. And I am ok with that! I try my best to always have a smile on my face and be filled with laughter but sometimes I frown and sometimes I cry. I get angry, I get sad. I go through things just like everyone else. I am not perfect, neither is my life. Accept me as I am. Flaws and all!
Yes, sometimes I curse! Why? Because I am human! I don’t curse just to say a bad word lol. I curse because sometimes life takes me there. I dont curse like a sailor, but I curse lol. Charge it to my head not my heart. Shit! Lol! Please just let me be! A little curse word never hurt anybody. Besides my sin is not better or worse than yours. So please don’t judge me for it! It’s just a damn curse word! Lol. No crime done! But I will say I was blessed with the knowledge to know how to speak and also the wisdom to know how, when and where to speak at any given time.
Most times people judge me and they dont even know me, they’ve never had a conversation with me. With that I say this, it has taken me many many years to grow the tough skin that I have now. No one is harder on me than me, and my siblings of course lol. I grew up on this right here,
“Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.”
“Im rubber your glue, whatever you say Sticks to you.”
Yall know what I’m talking about. I am from that generation. I know how to laugh at myself, I can take a joke, and I know how to ignore negativity. I am learning to except criticism, especially when it is constructive. Being judged and talked about is apart of life. I know who I am! And I except me! I am not here to be anyone else. I am here simply to be me, because I am ME! I AM HUMAN!
So I say all of that to say this. At this point in my life, I am happy, I am growing, I am building. I have goals, I have a dream. I refuse to let anyone knock me down, and disturb my peace! Call me ugly, call me fat, call me stupid, call me whatever you want. Ive been down way to much, for far to long in the past and I vow to never go back there due to someone elses insecurity and/or negative people. I refuse to let anyone take me back to a time and/or place in my life where I was anything but happy!
If you support me, I thank you so much! Please continue to support, like, respect, love me for me! Anyone with hateful, hurtful, negative comments I say this as I stated before, “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.”
*As I always say… These are just my thoughts! Because I am… Just me, MsDraya!
Xoxoxo… Ms Draya!😀😘